Superchick - Courage
I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
Like "I don't feel well"
"I ate before I came"
Then someone tells me how good I look
and for a moment
For a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful
The day I chose not to eat
What I do know is how I changed my life forever
I know I should know better
There are days when I'm okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
You should know you're not on your own
These secrets are walls that keep us alone
I don't know when but I know now
Together we'll make it through somehow
Together we'll make it through somehow
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
Superchick - Beauty From Pain
The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know i'm alive but i feel like i've died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that i made
I try to keep warm but i just grow colder
I feel like i'm slipping away
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
My whole world is the pain inside me
The best i can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though i can't understand why this happened
I know that i will when i look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Here i am, at the end of me
Tryin to hold to what i can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to Your promise
There will be a dawn
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Dead Celebrity Status - Someone I Once Knew
She wasn't born anorexic, but nowadays she suffers,
staring at these half-naked stars on magazine covers.
feeling pressured by the public.
She only weighs 90 pounds but still sucks in her stomach.
On the inside she's dieing, lying to herself, thinking:
- 5 more pounds won't jeopardize my health.
One day she might just collapse, she can't avoid it.
Too many sleepless nights spent bent over a toilet.
Spewing vomit, like she was an alcoholic.
Praying to a God she never believed in to stop it.
Hasn't eaten in weeks, drinks water by the heaps.
Now she looks like the skeleton she sees in her closet.
So close to death she can taste it, body looks wasted.
Hates life, hates you, hates the way she looks naked.
Now she's feeling drowsy, lousy,
thinking maybe this world's better off without me
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
She's staring at her belly, she's so scared to touch it,
imagining the feeling when it kicks inside her stomach.
Too late for safe sex, should have used a latex.
She can't afford a baby on minimum wage paychecks.
Her waistline climbs by inches,
'cuz she traded in the morning workouts for morning sickness.
Feeling nauseous, sleeps on a mat because she's cautious.
Give life or take life, that's her only options.
Only if she had a magic wand, she'd go back to that night
and put her clothes back on.
But she can't change time, or what's growing inside.
How could she love something that's barely alive?
Her body's aching, shaking, from sweaty palms, and cold sweat.
Mentally exhausting like phone sex.
No regrets, life or death, it's high stakes.
'cuz right or wrong, it's only her choice to make.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
[Side]
- Help!
[Girl:] You smell like perfume. That's NOT mine.
[Guy:] Your head's going fucking crazy, Your head is going crazy.
Gotta get outta here and look after myself.
[Girl:] What? What's so wrong with me that you can't love me?
[Guy:] Look-
[Girl:] What is wrong with me? I do everything for you.
I, I, I make myself look good, I go to the gym.
I, I eat like a fucking rabbit.
I don't, I don't know what else to do.
Tell me.
[Guy:] Baby, you don't understand because-
[Girl:] What it is I have to do to make you love me.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
Pompeii - Numbers
Came at you in silence, my back at the wall.
"i've seen those nights where you binge and purge"
Those locks on your doors tell me when you're crouched on all fours
counting tile, losing bile and sleep.
"it's just a diet, i've kept it quiet. Even if you told all my family and
friends they would never believe it."
I think you're right. I can't believe it too
that it's you, but it's you.
My problems hide in numbers that leave when i gag and heave,
I weighed out every option, that scale's not fit for advice.
Medical language won't ever help to shape this if that mind is just as frail
as it's frame.
you know i'd leave it alone.
We can beat genetics, adopting new aesthetics for beautiful bodies, figures
ever-so-slender
taking control, oh, what a nice, nice thing.
Besides, my problems hide in numbers that leave when i gag and heave
and heaving's kind of hard with your hands tied round your waist.
point out the obvious, tell me just how dangerous
then bundle every fight in an "isn't right" and leave it alone.
hiding in my baggy jeans
No one knows my secret
Hiding from the eyes that see
I have been defeated
mirror, mirror on mywall
ruthless to your victim
Suiting you is all i know
A slave to my reflection
Chorus
skinny
all these voices singing
skinny
all my monsters singing
skinny
got to fit that new bikini
skinny
all the world is singing
skinny
all them girls are swinging
got to fit that new bikini
Rachel Ferguson - Never Good Enough
Everybody said she was a winner
Noone knew the secret kept within her
Starving for perfection
Hating her reflection
She tries harder then the average teen
An overachiver with low self-esteem
Wants to walk like a star
But she takes it too far
She's never good enough
Wants to be Mary-Kate
Perfect weight, 88
She's never good enough
Now her friends all know about her problem
They all try their best to try to solve them
She feels like she's on trial
But she's still in denial
She tries harder then the average teen
An overachiver with low self-esteem
Wants to walk like a star
But she takes it too far
She's never good enough
Wants to be Mary-Kate
Perfect weight, 88
She's never good enough
Who's in control now?...
Who's in control now?...
Everybody said she was a winner
Noone knew the secret kept within her
She tries harder then the average teen
An overachiver with low self-esteem
Wants to walk like a star
But she takes it too far
She's never good enough
Wants to be Mary-Kate
Perfect weight, 88
She's never good enough
She tries harder then the average teen
An overachiever with low self-esteem
Lucy at the gym
She's there every time I go,
and I don't go that often, so she must live at the gym
I stare at her ribs they show through the spandex
Her little legs are working, she's going somewhere
She's climbing up the stairs
And when she reaches the top her dreams will be there
Lucy at the gym
Lucy on the scale for the third time
Thru thick and thin, Lucy's at the gym
She's staring at the clock and like the 2nd hand she never stops
She's Lucy at the gym
When she takes a shower, after all the hours
Does she have a place to go
Is there someone waiting
Or is Lucy all alone
I'm at the gym and Lucy's not there
It's got me kinda worried so I imagine the worst
She's made it up to heaven
And when she met her maker, he said "come right in"
"I'll show you around the gym"
"Everyone's beautiful and thin"
"And here there's no sin,
and your life can begin
Lucy at the gym"
T.A.T.U - Not Gonna Get Us [Not exactly about Anorexia but it helps me]
Not gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
Not gonna get us
Not gonna get us
Not gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
Not gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
Not gonna get us!
Starting from here, let's make a promise
You and me, let's just be honest
We're gonna run, nothing can stop us
Even the night that falls all around us
Soon there will be laughter and voices
Beyond the clouds over the mountains
We'll run away on roads that are empty
Lights from the airfield shining upon you
Nothing can stop us, not now, I love you
They're not gonna get us,
they're not gonna get us
Nothing can stop us, not now, I love you
They're not gonna get us,
they're not gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
(Not..)
They're not gonna get us, gonna get us, gonna get us..
(Not gonna get us)
They're not gonna get us (gonna get us, gonna get us!)
Not gonna get us
Not gonna get us, gonna get us.
Not gonna get us
NOT GONNA GET US, GONNA GET US!
(Not gonna get us)
Get Us, get us..
(Not gonna get us)
Not gonna get us
Not gonna get us
We'll run away, keep everything simple
Night will come down, our guardian angel
We rush ahead, the crossroads are empty
Our spirits rise, they're not gonna get us
My love for you, always forever
Just you and me, all else is nothing
Not going back, not going back there
They don't understand,
They don't understand us
Not gonna get us, gonna get us, gonna get us (gonna get.. get us.)
Not gonna get us (gonna get.. gonna get..)
Not gonna get us, gonna get us..
Not gonna get us
Nothing can stop us, not now, I love you
They're not gonna get us,
they're not gonna get us
Nothing can stop us, not now, I love you
They're not gonna get us,
they're not gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
(Not gonna get us)
They're not gonna get us, gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
(Not gonna get us)
Not gonna get us, get us
Not gonna get us, get us
Not gonna get us"
Story of a girl who lost her world, so she could be beautiful
(Verse 1)
Fifteen, so sweet, you’d think,
But she’s got a secret.
Made up her mind,
The day she came to find-out that he left
(Pre)
I Guess there’s another girl
This time blue eyes, blonde hair
She’ll do anything to catch his eye
But she knows she’ll never compare
(verse2)
Skips school, wont eat, can barely sleep
Takes drastic measure.
Runs seven miles a day in the sun
Wearing a sweater
(Pre)
She turns the radio on so no one hears what she’s doing.
Cuz she’s convinced herself he’ll come back to her, when she’s perfect.
(Chorus)
She’s just a girl, who doesn’t know she’s already beautiful.
One year ago, if you had seen her you would never know
This would be her only out, for every time she’s broken down, and hates herself,
For everything that’s wrong in life, looks in the mirror to criticized, she’d rather be beautiful than alive.
(Verse 2)
Nineteen, one shrink, two times a week, but nothings changing.
Mom cries at night-for her life, cuz she knows she’s fading.
(Pre)
She’s tried to turn around, but she’s too far in the wrong direction
Wasn’t s’pose to be this way, all she wanted was some affection.
(Chorus)
She’s just a girl, who doesn’t know she’s already beautiful.
Five years ago, if you had seen her you would never know
This would be her only out, for every time she’s broken down, and hates herself,
For everything that’s wrong in life, looks in the mirror to criticized, she’d rather be beautiful than be alive.
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
(Verse 3)
Twenty three,
Now she’s buried
Underneath red roses.
I’m gonna miss her
And I hope someone learns from this
(Pre)
Maybe she’s happy now
Maybe she’s finally free
Of not feeling good enough,
And maybe she’s rid of her disease.
(Chorus)
She’s just a girl, who didn’t feel like she was beautiful
Seven years ago, if you had seen her you would never know.
This would be her only out, for every time she’s broken down, and hates herself,
For everything that’s wrong in life, looks in the mirror to criticized, she’d rather be beautiful than be alive
King Adora - Big Isn't Beautiful
I want your heart shaped lips,lips
Cooler hula hips,
I want to feel my bones on your bones, baby,
I wear my heartache on my sleeve,
I love myself to much to see...
It haunts my dreams...
(It haunts my every dream) When every boy wants a body to die for,
And every girl who's thin is his rival,
I wish I had a body to die for,
Skinny is sexy,
Big isn't beautiful.
I'm gonna shed me some skin,
Get me real real slim,
I want to feels my bones on your bones,
I am a teenage Drama Queen,
I throw my guts up for self-esteem...
It haunts my dreams...
(It haunts my every dream)
When every boy wants a body to die for,
And every girls who's thin is his rival,
I wish I had a body to die for,
Skinny is sexy,
Big isn't beautiful.
Ooh, ohh ohh...
Every boy wants a body to die for,
And every girl who's thin is his rival,
I wish I had a body to die for...
Skinny is sexy,
Sweet anorexia!
Skinny is sexy,
Big isn't beautiful!
Outcast Youth - Genevieve
Genevieve lies in bed at night and can't sleep,
Her tummy hurts cuz she hasn't had enough to eat.
Stomach cramps leave her writhing in pain,
Clutching at her abdomen. it's happening again...
"Why, Oh why did I get this way?
I only wanted to lose a little bit of weight...
I wish I could be happy, but it's too late",
She thinks as she picks at the food on her plate.
She tries to take a bite but it's not happening.
Convinced that her piece of toast is too fattening...
Everytime that she tries to eat,
All she sees are the faces of high school bullies.
Every guy who told her she was too fat...
Every boyfriend who only gave a stuff about,
Sex and blow jobs that made her cry.
I hold her close as she tells me...
And I sigh.
She used to look in the mirror and cry,
Looking back at her was a girl twice her size...
Distorted, self-perceptive view through her eyes,
Enhanced furthermore by the media lies.
Reality's perception, Perception pre-defined.
Weight loss encouraged and even glorified.
MTV is brainwashing our children,
Visually and socialogically,
With a fake size zero philosophy.
An ideology that you've gotta be thin,
To appear in any program on that station,
And that's the reason she don't watch TV,
Cuz she's scared of the person who she might be.
Afraid to admit that she's dealing with...
Anorexia nervosa. And she denies it...
She says she doesn't have a problem. But she's lying.
In this segregated room of bleached out white,
The black ink of my pen bleeds when I write.
The frail, decrepit, ghost looking back at me,
Is but a shadow of the girl who used to leave a trail of colour,
Through this monochrome world.
I'm praying for the day that her smile returns.
I tell her not to lose hope,
I'm writing a song,
that's gonna travel 'round the world,
Giving light to the dark.
Musical Anna Karenin - with a happy ending.
I'm no Tolstoy but this story needs to be told,
Of sweet Genevieve,
Broken but bold!
Who's tiny food problem got out of control,
Who since last week doesn't eat no more!
Doctors putting tubes in her stomach makes her vomit...
All she needs to save her right now is a prayer,
But we're all too busy to remember her.
Lisa Loeb - She's Falling Apart
They pull up their chairs to the table
She stares at the food on her plate
At the toast and the butter
Her father, her mother, she pushes away
And they rise in the morning
And they sleep in the dark
And even though nobody's looking
She's falling apart
She gets home from school too early
And closes the door to her room
There's nothing inside her
She's weak and she's tired of feeling like this
And they rise in the morning
And they sleep in the dark
And even though nobody's looking
She's falling apart
They call her for dinner, she makes up a reason
She looks at her arms and she rolls down her sleeves
And her mother is starting to see through her lies
And last night her father had tears in his eyes
And they rise in the morning
And they sleep in the dark
And even though nobody's looking
She's falling apart
And we rise in the morning
And we sleep in the dark
And even though nobody's looking
She's falling apart
Eleanor McEvoy - Sophie
Sophie cannot finish her dinner
Says she’s eatin’ enough
Sophie’s tryin’ to make herself thinner
Says she’s eatin’ too much
And her brother says, you’re joking,
And her mother’s heart is broken
Sophie has a hard time copin’
And, besides, sophie’s hopin’
Chorus
She can be like all the other girls
Be just like all the other girls
Livin’ in an ordinary world
Just to fit in, in the ordinary world
Just to fit in like an ordinary girl.
Sophie’s losin’ weight by the minute
How did things get this bad?
Sophie’s family don’t understand it
Gave her all that they had
And her sister won’t stop cryin’
’cause her father says she’s dyin’
Sophie says she’s really tryin’
Problem is, sophie’s lying.
Repeat chorus
How did she get this way?
How did she get this way?
Through tryin’ to hide it.
What does it take to say,
What does it take to say
She’s dying, sophie’s dying to
Alanis Morissette - Perfect
Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face
Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder
How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet
Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud
I'll live for you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem ...... why are you crying
Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are if you're perfect
Silverchair - Ana's Song
Please die Ana
For as long as you're here we're not
You make the sound of laughter
and sharpened nails seem softer
And I need you now somehow
And I need you now somehow
Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire on my knees desires
What I need from you
Imagine pageant
In my head the flesh seems thicker
Sandpaper tears corrode the film
And I need you now somehow
And I need you now somehow
Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire on my knees desires
What I need from you
And you're my obsession
I love you to the bones
And Ana wrecks your life
Like an Anorexia life
Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire on my knees desires
What I need from you
Open fire on the needs designed
Open fire on my knees desires
On my knees for you
Evanescence - Away From Me [Again, not really about Anorexia but helps me]
I hold my breath as this life starts to take its toll
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds
But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to
Lost all faith in the things I have achieved, and I-
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all the lie I've created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me
Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed
I can't go on like this, I loathe all I've become
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all the lie I've created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me
Lost in a dying world I reach for something more
I have grown so weary of this lie I live
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all the lie I've created
I'm longing to be lost in you, I-
Have woken now to find myself
I'm lost in shadows of my own
I'm longing to be lost in you
Away from me
From me (x7)
All Time Low - Weightless
Turn a page, I'm a book half unread
I wanna be laughed at, laughed with, just because
I wanna feel weightless and that should be enough
But I'm stuck in this fucking rut
Waiting on a second-hand pick-me-up
And I'm over getting older
If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I'm over getting old
Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction to everything I fear
'Cause I've been going crazy, I don't wanna waste another minute here
Make believe that I impress
That every word, by design, turns a head
I wanna feel reckless, wanna live it up just because
I wanna feel weightless 'cause that would be enough
If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I'm over getting old
Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction to everything I fear
'Cause I've been going crazy, I don't wanna waste another minute here
This could be all I've waited for
(I've waited, I've waited for)
And this could be everything I don't wanna dream anymore
Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year
And I've been going crazy, I'm stuck in here
Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year
(It's gonna be my year)
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
(Go nowhere)
And this is my reaction to everything I fear
(Everything I fear)
'Cause I've been going crazy, I don't wanna waste another minute here
Kitty on the Catwalk - Pro Ana Party Slamma
Push up, push up
Don't stop, don't stop
Push up, push up
Don't stop, don't stop
Push up, don't stop
Kitty On The Catwalk
Pro Ana Party Slamma'
C'mon and search
And destroy
Rock'n'roll
Pro ana boy
Binge, purge
Kill that urge
Push up, push up
Don't stop, don't stop
Change your body
Get a kick
Thin and gorgeous
Heroin chic
Jodie Kidd, Kate Moss
Show your body who's the boss
Fly so high
Touch the sky
Never gonna eat
My technobeat is all i need
Hear my plead
I want to die and touch the sky
I'm in the mood
To flush the food
Never gonna eat
My technobeat is all I desire
Take me higher
Watch me cry, watch me die
Watch me die
A moment on the lips
A lifetime on the hips
Inner beauty is a joke
Kill your hunger with a smoke
Being by yourself and touching your bones
When all of a sudden, your doctor phones
"I made an appointment
for you at two o'clock,
will you be able to show up?"
No!
Push up, push
Don't stop, don't stop
Thin thighs tell no lies!
Fly so high
Touch the sky
Never gonna eat
My technobeat is all i need
Hear my plead
I want to die and touch the sky
I'm in the mood
To flush the food
Never gonna eat
My technobeat is all I desire
Take me higher
Watch me cry, watch me die
Fly so high
Touch the sky
Never gonna eat
My technobeat is all i need
Hear my plead
I want to die and touch the sky
I'm in the mood
To flush the food
Never gonna eat
My technobeat is all I desire
Take me higher
Watch me cry, watch me die
No comments:
Post a Comment