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Fast: Day 3

Well the third day of my fast hasn't gone very well.
First of all, I think my parents have worked it out.
I told them I couldn't go to the meal with them because I was ill, so they INSISTED that they come round to my flat and cook me something.
I tried to say no, but they wouldn't listen.
And they have the spare set of keys so I couldn't even ignore them when they got there.

Anyway, my mum found the food I'd thrown away yesterday.
I told her it was all out of date but I don't think she believed me.

Also they noticed that I didn't eat anything.
They didn't say anything about that though, at least not to my face.
Next time I need a better excuse.

Secondly,
I'm so fucking hungry. 
All I can think about is FOOD FOOD FOOD.

Four times I've gone into the kitchen and boiled the kettle to make a cuppa-soup before i decided against it.
I know they're only 90 calories but still.
That's 90 calories i could do without.

I think I'm having an off-day.

I am now 126lbs though, which I'm really happy about. :}
This means I've only got 14lbs left to lose!

I'm going to the Cinema tomorrow.
MASS WILLPOWER NEEDED.
I always eat too much popcorn.

xoxo

'Doctor Who' star Billie Piper reveals her battle with anorexia

Actress Billie Piper has told how her years as a teenage pop star and her desire to emulate photos of "skinny models" drove her to eat tissues and go for up to five days without solid food.

Piper, 24, who stars in BBC1's Doctor Who, said she became anorexic and would purge her body with laxatives. She also punched herself in the stomach to make her hunger pangs go away.

In her autobiography, Growing Pains, to be published later this month, she says it was her relationship with DJ Chris Evans that gave her a new zest for life and which made her starvation diet go "out the window".

Piper said she developed a fixation about her weight when, as a chart-topping 16-year-old, she overheard a TV presenter call her "fat" at the Brit Awards. She decided to cut out junk food, but when the weight failed to fall off quickly enough, "I'd cut everything out and see how long I could go before I really had to eat".

Coffee, Diet Coke and cigarettes would often be the only things she took on board. "At one point, I managed five days without solid food," she said in The Mail On Sunday's serialisation of her book.

Piper then began to look for drastic weight loss tips from other anorexics in magazines. "I read about a girl who ate tissues to fill herself up, so I sat on the floor of my hotel room somewhere in America and tried to force Kleenex down my throat. But the tissue thing was bollocks. Not only was I still hungry, I nearly choked on a ball of tissue.

"To make the hunger pangs go away, I used to punch my stomach hard. I searched out pictures of skinny models to spur me on. Normal-sized women seemed revolting to me."

EastEnders' Natalie Cassidy: 'I had an eating disorder and took laxatives'

Former EastEnders actress Natalie Cassidy says she was driven to an 'eating disorder' and resorted to laxatives in her bid to impress through a dramatic weight loss regime.

After putting the pounds back on, Cassidy reveals she crashed down to 7st 12lb at the height of her regime.

She admits size eight jeans struggled to stay on in the changing rooms.

'I really wasn't well. I was bordering on having an eating disorder. I became silly with my eating', she told Heat magazine.

'There were nights out when I'd go out for dinner and then I'd go home and take laxatives because I didn't want the food inside me.'

'Ally McBeal' Star Admits Anorexia

Calista Flockhart has admitted she did have an eating disorder when she starred in 'Ally McBeal'.

The 40-year-old beauty has confessed she didn't eat enough while appearing in the series because she felt under so much pressure. Calista told Britain's Daily Mirror newspaper: "At the time of all that, I was seriously stressed.

"I was working 15-hour days on the set and then I was dealing with the end of the show, which was basically my life. "I started under-eating, over-exercising, pushing myself too hard and brutalising my immune system."

At the height of her fame in the late 90s, Calista repeatedly denied suffering from anorexia. The 5ft 5ins star allowed her weight to plunge to under seven stone at one point and shocked fans with her gaunt appearance at the Emmy Awards in 1998. The following year, fears over her health were sparked again after she collapsed on the set of her series.

But Calista, who is romancing Hollywood legend Harrison Ford, insists she takes much better care of herself these days. She said: "I just didn't find time to eat. I am much more healthy these days."

Is Keira Knightly Anorexic?

British actress Keira Knightley on Tuesday denied rumors she was suffering from the eating disorder anorexia. Speaking a day after showing off her rail thin figure in a low-cut, backless bronze Gucci dress she wore at the London premiere of her latest film prompted questions about her weight, she added that she had a family history of the illness. "It was really weird, they said that to me yesterday," the 21-year-old told a news conference, referring to the premiere of "Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest" in which she stars alongside Johnny Depp.

Keira insists that she is not anorexic even though her family has a past with the deadly eating disorder. Last year Keira told the press, "I've got a lot of experience with anorexia, my grandmother and great-grandmother suffered from it, and I had a lot of friends at school who suffered from it. I know it's not something to be taken lightly and I don't." She also seemed startled when reporters asked her how it felt to be labeled an anorexic. "I had no idea that I was. I'm not saying there aren't people in the film industry that suffer from it, because I am sure that there are. But I'm quite sure I don't have it." It's this exact sort of denial that is commonplace with women who have the eating disorder.

Fast: Day 2

Second day of my fast today, It's gone really well. :}
Also I've lost another pound!
128lbs.
I've still got a LONG way to go.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to be going to a meal with my parents, but I'm just gonna pretend I'm ill.

Anyway, I feel really guilty.
My best friend bought me a load of food today, but i threw it all away and told her I'd eaten it.
I had to throw it away. I had to.
I don't even know why I'm lying to her, she's Bulimic herself so she would understand.

But no, no one can ever find out.
No one.
I can't risk it, If it got out I'd be back in hospital before you could say 'Eating Disorder Unit'.

Only 2 more days left of my fast, I'm confident. :}
I probably wont even stop after four days. I hope not.

xoxo

Alanis Morissette Opens Up About Eating Disorder

Singer Alanis Morissette was once so overwhelmed by the pressure to be skinny in Hollywood, she became both anorexic and bulimic.

Morissette recalls a record executive once "suggested I was getting too fat, saying, 'You need to go on a diet.' My response was, 'But I'm a singer.' He said, 'Yes, well, you need to get small again.'"

She adds, "That started a whole cycle. Two days later I was sticking fingers down my throat."

It's amazing (and sad) that one comment can trigger an eating disorder. She should have shoved her finger down that exec's mouth and asked him how he liked it. Unbelievable.

Miss Cardiff contestant speaks out on beating anorexia

Schoolgirl Kirstie McLean has taken the brave step of speaking out about her battle with anorexia as she prepares to take part in the Miss Cardiff contest

Recovering anorexic Kirstie McLean was practically housebound a year ago. But her dream of entering a beauty competition has helped in her fight back to health, writes Cathy Owen.

The 17-year-old, from Rumney, Cardiff, knew that she couldn’t be “too skinny” for the Miss Cardiff semi-final interviews. It was the push she needed to help her put back on the weight she so needed. And she has taken the brave step of talking about her battle publicly in the hope of helping other young girls in a similar situation.

The sixth form student’s weight had plummeted to just over five stone last year, which had given her 5ft 5ins frame a skeletal appearance. It was photographs of Kirstie and her friends that started her to diet in the first place.

“It was back in 2008 when the problem first started,” explains Kirstie, who competes in the final of Miss Cardiff on Friday night. “I was looking at photos of me and my friends and thought I just looked fatter than them all.

“I had put on a bit of weight and was between a size 10 and 12. I didn’t like it and decided to do something about it.

“I started skipping my lunch at school. My plan was that when I’d lost the weight, I’d start eating properly again. I thought I knew what I was doing.”

Kirstie’s weight began to drop, but she didn’t return to eating properly as she had planned.

“At home, I’d have a Ryvita with jam for breakfast and then really small portions for tea,” she explains.“Sometimes it might only have been a sandwich. I just drank lots of cups of tea to fill myself up.

“My periods stopped and my mum grew increasingly concerned. But I kept if from my family.

“My nan used to ask me if I was on a diet and I would say that I wasn’t.

“In April, 2009, my mum took me to the doctors. In fact we went twice. Both times, they asked me if I was pregnant. I knew I couldn’t be, so they just told me to start eating properly.

“I don’t think they had any idea that I had a problem.

“At that point, I didn’t look at it as a problem either. I just thought I was doing what I could to stay slim.”

Kirstie had been a very sporty teen and was an active member of a netball team and Cyncoed Ladies football team. In the end, it was her football coach who made her face up to her problem.

The coach pulled her aside and said: “Kirstie, do you want to close your eyes, put your hands over your ears and admit to me that you have a problem?”

“That was the turning point,” she says. “I had ignored all the comments and concerns before that, but for my football coach to take me aside after a game, came as quite a shock. “Thank goodness, because that is what I needed.”

Kirstie was then referred to the CAMHS team at St David’s Hospital in Cardiff, which deals with young people with eating disorders, where she has since undergone treatment.

“My friends kept telling me that I should try modelling, and I’ve always been interested in the idea of Miss Wales and that was one of the reasons I knew I had to get better,” says Kirstie, who lives with her parents, two brothers and a sister.

“I try to put on a kilo every week. I knew that being anorexic wouldn’t make me a great role model for other girls.”

At her lowest ebb, Kirstie was wearing clothes for 11-year-old children. She had to stop sport and even limited her time at school.

“Around last Christmas, life had pretty much stopped for me,” she says. “I couldn’t do the sport I had always loved. “I just remember sitting at home knitting a Christmas tree for a school competition while all my friends were out having fun. I knew I had to get my old life back.”

She is now in the process of recovering from anorexia. Kirstie has gained around 11kg and is wearing clothes size 6 to size 8, but is still under the supervision of St David’s nurses. She follows set meal plans and is optimistic that she will be discharged from the nurses’ care shortly.

Kirstie is back at sixth form college full time and is pursuing A levels in sociology, health and social care, and religious education. She hopes to become either a teacher or community nurse in the future.

Paula Abbandonato, head of Vibe, which organises Miss Cardiff and Miss Wales, said: “Kirstie’s story is distressing, but we are pleased that she is on the road to recovery.

“I hope other young girls who think that being really thin is the only way forward in the beauty and fashion industry take note of her experience. Being beautiful is not about size zero, and that’s why we welcome all shapes and sizes at Miss Wales.”

Ana Quotes.

It doesn't matter how long it takes as long as you don't stop

A moment on the lips, A lifetime on the hips.

Eat to live, Don't live to eat.

Calories last longer than Cravings.

Bones are beautiful.

If it was easy, Everyone would do it.

Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.

Lindsay Lohan Turning Anorexic?

Following a rough recent break-up with gal-pal Sam Ronson, the “jobless” Lindsay Lohan is trying to concentrate on her career. In a bid to get noticed in the industry, the ‘Mean Girls’ star is starving herself into a reed. After all, when it comes to show-biz, thin is always in.

The 22-year-old star was recently seen shopping in Los Angeles in a skimpy outfit that showed her bones, which were almost trying to tear past her skin.

According to People magazine Lohan’s friends and family see her weight loss as a cry for help.
Also, it is believed that Lohan is still to get over her lesbian relationship with Samatha Ronson and is secretly hoping to have her back. “I really care about Samantha and we’ll see what happens,” Lindsay said last week, when she appeared on The Ellen DeGeneres Show. “Maybe when we’re fully in the right place … I love her.”

She is dropping pounds to get attention from her ex, revealed a source close to the actress.
According to the "source," Lohan "wants Hollywood to see her as a 'tortured artist' who is wasting away … This is a symptom of something much bigger – a desperate need to be noticed."
"Linsday Lohan has grown up before the camera. We have so many visuals of her, and she yo-yos from underweight to the lower-end of healthy. To me, it seems a range of about 20 pounds -- she's at the low end now,” said Madelyn H. Fernstrom, director of the University of Pittsburgh Medical Center's Weight

Management Center. “So, compared to other photos of her, she looks underweight to me, and is definitely thinner than she has been in recent months and years."
Is Lindsay Lohan turning anorexic? Probably the depression of her recent break-up is keeping her from maintaining a healthy diet.

Lohan was loved with her appreciable curves in her breakout role in 2004's ‘Mean Girls’. Has Hollywood turned “mean” to curves in five years?
Well, thin maybe in, but the industry also commends its curvaceous contenders like Kate Winslet and Salma Hayek. Watch out Li-Lo, you may not need to watch your weight.

Is Cher Lloyd Anorexic?

X Factor hopeful Cher Lloyd was pictured in London this week, looking thinner than ever in a blue jumpsuit and beige ankle boots.
The 16 year old from Malvern in Worcestershire was first seen impressing Cheryl Cole, Simon Cowell, Louis Walsh and Natalie Imbruglia at her initial audition, when she sang Turn My Swag On by Soulja Boy. (The Keri Hilson version). On last night’s bootcamp show, Cher wowed Nicole Scherzinger with her original take on Coldplay’s Viva La Vida.

A friend of the teenager has been speaking to The Daily Star and claims that the already tiny singer, has been trying to lose more weight before the live shows start, adding that if she doesn’t stop soon, she will look like a ‘skeleton.’

They said:
“Cher already had a tiny frame but she’s lost even more weight since auditioning for The X Factor because of all the strain.
“It is really worrying because if she carries on like this there will be nothing left of her.
“She is likely to wind up looking like a skeleton by the end of it all.”
The source added: “Cher has been thrown in to the spotlight of Britain’s biggest TV show and it’s obviously starting to take its toll.

“What people forget is that Cher has only just turned 17.
“She’s not the tough, streetwise girl she pretends to be.”
Tune into The X factor tonight to see if Cher makes it past bootcamp and through to the judges houses round.

Thinspirationxo

Fast: Day 1

Today was the first day of my four-day-fast.
It's gone pretty well I suppose, although i came close to eating several times!
But i didn't though, so I'm proud of myself :}
All I've had today is Coffee, Cigarettes and Water.
Also I've lost a pound! :}

OMG I can't 'til we go back to college so I have something to take my mind off eating..
Only three days left until the end of my fast, I hope i can stick to it! :/

xoxo

Songs About Eating Disorders

Superchick - Courage

I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
Like "I don't feel well"
"I ate before I came"

Then someone tells me how good I look
and for a moment
For a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day

I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful
The day I chose not to eat
What I do know is how I changed my life forever
I know I should know better
There are days when I'm okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day

You should know you're not on your own
These secrets are walls that keep us alone
I don't know when but I know now
Together we'll make it through somehow
Together we'll make it through somehow

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day

Superchick - Beauty From Pain

The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know i'm alive but i feel like i've died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that i made
I try to keep warm but i just grow colder
I feel like i'm slipping away

After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me
The best i can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though i can't understand why this happened
I know that i will when i look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames

After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

Here i am, at the end of me
Tryin to hold to what i can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to Your promise
There will be a dawn

After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

Dead Celebrity Status - Someone I Once Knew

She wasn't born anorexic, but nowadays she suffers,
staring at these half-naked stars on magazine covers.
feeling pressured by the public.
She only weighs 90 pounds but still sucks in her stomach.
On the inside she's dieing, lying to herself, thinking:
- 5 more pounds won't jeopardize my health.
One day she might just collapse, she can't avoid it.
Too many sleepless nights spent bent over a toilet.
Spewing vomit, like she was an alcoholic.
Praying to a God she never believed in to stop it.
Hasn't eaten in weeks, drinks water by the heaps.
Now she looks like the skeleton she sees in her closet.
So close to death she can taste it, body looks wasted.
Hates life, hates you, hates the way she looks naked.
Now she's feeling drowsy, lousy,
thinking maybe this world's better off without me

I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.

She's staring at her belly, she's so scared to touch it,
imagining the feeling when it kicks inside her stomach.
Too late for safe sex, should have used a latex.
She can't afford a baby on minimum wage paychecks.
Her waistline climbs by inches,
'cuz she traded in the morning workouts for morning sickness.
Feeling nauseous, sleeps on a mat because she's cautious.
Give life or take life, that's her only options.
Only if she had a magic wand, she'd go back to that night
and put her clothes back on.
But she can't change time, or what's growing inside.
How could she love something that's barely alive?
Her body's aching, shaking, from sweaty palms, and cold sweat.
Mentally exhausting like phone sex.
No regrets, life or death, it's high stakes.
'cuz right or wrong, it's only her choice to make.

I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.

[Side]
- Help!
[Girl:] You smell like perfume. That's NOT mine.
[Guy:] Your head's going fucking crazy, Your head is going crazy.
Gotta get outta here and look after myself.
[Girl:] What? What's so wrong with me that you can't love me?
[Guy:] Look-
[Girl:] What is wrong with me? I do everything for you.
I, I, I make myself look good, I go to the gym.
I, I eat like a fucking rabbit.
I don't, I don't know what else to do.
Tell me.
[Guy:] Baby, you don't understand because-
[Girl:] What it is I have to do to make you love me.

I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.

Pompeii - Numbers

Came at you in silence, my back at the wall.
"i've seen those nights where you binge and purge"
Those locks on your doors tell me when you're crouched on all fours
counting tile, losing bile and sleep.
"it's just a diet, i've kept it quiet. Even if you told all my family and
friends they would never believe it."
I think you're right. I can't believe it too
that it's you, but it's you.

My problems hide in numbers that leave when i gag and heave,
I weighed out every option, that scale's not fit for advice.
Medical language won't ever help to shape this if that mind is just as frail
as it's frame.
you know i'd leave it alone.

We can beat genetics, adopting new aesthetics for beautiful bodies, figures
ever-so-slender
taking control, oh, what a nice, nice thing.

Besides, my problems hide in numbers that leave when i gag and heave
and heaving's kind of hard with your hands tied round your waist.
point out the obvious, tell me just how dangerous
then bundle every fight in an "isn't right" and leave it alone.

Edith Backlund - Skinny

mirror, mirror on the wall
ruthless to your victim
suiting you becomes my love
tied to my reflection
hunger takes a hold of me
making my decisions
glossy fashion magazines will feed my new addiction
Chorus

skinny
all these voices singing
skinny
all my monsters singing
skinny
got to fit that new bikini

skinny
all the world is singing
skinny
all them girls are swinging
got to fit that new bikini

hiding in my baggy jeans
No one knows my secret
Hiding from the eyes that see
I have been defeated
mirror, mirror on mywall
ruthless to your victim
Suiting you is all i know
A slave to my reflection
Chorus

skinny
all these voices singing
skinny
all my monsters singing
skinny
got to fit that new bikini

skinny
all the world is singing
skinny
all them girls are swinging
got to fit that new bikini

Rachel Ferguson - Never Good Enough

Everybody said she was a winner
Noone knew the secret kept within her
Starving for perfection
Hating her reflection

She tries harder then the average teen
An overachiver with low self-esteem
Wants to walk like a star
But she takes it too far
She's never good enough
Wants to be Mary-Kate
Perfect weight, 88
She's never good enough

Now her friends all know about her problem
They all try their best to try to solve them
She feels like she's on trial
But she's still in denial

She tries harder then the average teen
An overachiver with low self-esteem
Wants to walk like a star
But she takes it too far
She's never good enough
Wants to be Mary-Kate
Perfect weight, 88
She's never good enough

Who's in control now?...
Who's in control now?...

Everybody said she was a winner
Noone knew the secret kept within her

She tries harder then the average teen
An overachiver with low self-esteem
Wants to walk like a star
But she takes it too far
She's never good enough
Wants to be Mary-Kate
Perfect weight, 88
She's never good enough

She tries harder then the average teen
An overachiever with low self-esteem

Jill Sobule - Lucy at the Gym

Lucy at the gym
She's there every time I go,
and I don't go that often, so she must live at the gym
I stare at her ribs they show through the spandex
Her little legs are working, she's going somewhere
She's climbing up the stairs
And when she reaches the top her dreams will be there

Lucy at the gym
Lucy on the scale for the third time
Thru thick and thin, Lucy's at the gym
She's staring at the clock and like the 2nd hand she never stops
She's Lucy at the gym

When she takes a shower, after all the hours
Does she have a place to go
Is there someone waiting
Or is Lucy all alone

I'm at the gym and Lucy's not there
It's got me kinda worried so I imagine the worst
She's made it up to heaven
And when she met her maker, he said "come right in"
"I'll show you around the gym"
"Everyone's beautiful and thin"
"And here there's no sin,
and your life can begin
Lucy at the gym"

T.A.T.U - Not Gonna Get Us  [Not exactly about Anorexia but it helps me]


Not gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
Not gonna get us
Not gonna get us
Not gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
Not gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
Not gonna get us!

Starting from here, let's make a promise
You and me, let's just be honest
We're gonna run, nothing can stop us
Even the night that falls all around us

Soon there will be laughter and voices
Beyond the clouds over the mountains
We'll run away on roads that are empty
Lights from the airfield shining upon you

Nothing can stop us, not now, I love you
They're not gonna get us,
they're not gonna get us
Nothing can stop us, not now, I love you
They're not gonna get us,
they're not gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
(Not..)
They're not gonna get us, gonna get us, gonna get us..
(Not gonna get us)
They're not gonna get us (gonna get us, gonna get us!)
Not gonna get us
Not gonna get us, gonna get us.
Not gonna get us
NOT GONNA GET US, GONNA GET US!
(Not gonna get us)
Get Us, get us..
(Not gonna get us)

Not gonna get us
Not gonna get us

We'll run away, keep everything simple
Night will come down, our guardian angel
We rush ahead, the crossroads are empty
Our spirits rise, they're not gonna get us

My love for you, always forever
Just you and me, all else is nothing
Not going back, not going back there
They don't understand,
They don't understand us

Not gonna get us, gonna get us, gonna get us (gonna get.. get us.)
Not gonna get us (gonna get.. gonna get..)
Not gonna get us, gonna get us..
Not gonna get us

Nothing can stop us, not now, I love you
They're not gonna get us,
they're not gonna get us
Nothing can stop us, not now, I love you
They're not gonna get us,
they're not gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
(Not gonna get us)
They're not gonna get us, gonna get us
They're not gonna get us
(Not gonna get us)
Not gonna get us, get us
Not gonna get us, get us
Not gonna get us"

Faces Without Names - Deadly Beauty

Story of a girl who lost her world, so she could be beautiful

(Verse 1)
Fifteen, so sweet, you’d think,
But she’s got a secret.

Made up her mind,
The day she came to find-out that he left

(Pre)
I Guess there’s another girl
This time blue eyes, blonde hair

She’ll do anything to catch his eye
But she knows she’ll never compare

(verse2)
Skips school, wont eat, can barely sleep
Takes drastic measure.

Runs seven miles a day in the sun
Wearing a sweater

(Pre)
She turns the radio on so no one hears what she’s doing.
Cuz she’s convinced herself he’ll come back to her, when she’s perfect.

(Chorus)
She’s just a girl, who doesn’t know she’s already beautiful.
One year ago, if you had seen her you would never know
This would be her only out, for every time she’s broken down, and hates herself,
For everything that’s wrong in life, looks in the mirror to criticized, she’d rather be beautiful than alive.

(Verse 2)
Nineteen, one shrink, two times a week, but nothings changing.
Mom cries at night-for her life, cuz she knows she’s fading.

(Pre)
She’s tried to turn around, but she’s too far in the wrong direction
Wasn’t s’pose to be this way, all she wanted was some affection.


(Chorus)
She’s just a girl, who doesn’t know she’s already beautiful.
Five years ago, if you had seen her you would never know
This would be her only out, for every time she’s broken down, and hates herself,
For everything that’s wrong in life, looks in the mirror to criticized, she’d rather be beautiful than be alive.

Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

(Verse 3)
Twenty three,
Now she’s buried
Underneath red roses.
I’m gonna miss her
And I hope someone learns from this

(Pre)
Maybe she’s happy now
Maybe she’s finally free
Of not feeling good enough,
And maybe she’s rid of her disease.

(Chorus)
She’s just a girl, who didn’t feel like she was beautiful
Seven years ago, if you had seen her you would never know.
This would be her only out, for every time she’s broken down, and hates herself,
For everything that’s wrong in life, looks in the mirror to criticized, she’d rather be beautiful than be alive

King Adora - Big Isn't Beautiful

I want your heart shaped lips,lips
Cooler hula hips,
I want to feel my bones on your bones, baby,
I wear my heartache on my sleeve,
I love myself to much to see...

It haunts my dreams...

(It haunts my every dream) When every boy wants a body to die for,
And every girl who's thin is his rival,
I wish I had a body to die for,
Skinny is sexy,
Big isn't beautiful.

I'm gonna shed me some skin,
Get me real real slim,
I want to feels my bones on your bones,
I am a teenage Drama Queen,
I throw my guts up for self-esteem...

It haunts my dreams...

(It haunts my every dream)

When every boy wants a body to die for,
And every girls who's thin is his rival,
I wish I had a body to die for,
Skinny is sexy,
Big isn't beautiful.

Ooh, ohh ohh...

Every boy wants a body to die for,
And every girl who's thin is his rival,
I wish I had a body to die for...
Skinny is sexy,
Sweet anorexia!
Skinny is sexy,
Big isn't beautiful!

Outcast Youth - Genevieve

Genevieve lies in bed at night and can't sleep,
Her tummy hurts cuz she hasn't had enough to eat.
Stomach cramps leave her writhing in pain,
Clutching at her abdomen. it's happening again...
"Why, Oh why did I get this way?
I only wanted to lose a little bit of weight...
I wish I could be happy, but it's too late",
She thinks as she picks at the food on her plate.
She tries to take a bite but it's not happening.
Convinced that her piece of toast is too fattening...
Everytime that she tries to eat,
All she sees are the faces of high school bullies.
Every guy who told her she was too fat...
Every boyfriend who only gave a stuff about,
Sex and blow jobs that made her cry.
I hold her close as she tells me...
And I sigh.

She used to look in the mirror and cry,
Looking back at her was a girl twice her size...
Distorted, self-perceptive view through her eyes,
Enhanced furthermore by the media lies.
Reality's perception, Perception pre-defined.
Weight loss encouraged and even glorified.
MTV is brainwashing our children,
Visually and socialogically,
With a fake size zero philosophy.
An ideology that you've gotta be thin,
To appear in any program on that station,
And that's the reason she don't watch TV,
Cuz she's scared of the person who she might be.
Afraid to admit that she's dealing with...
Anorexia nervosa. And she denies it...
She says she doesn't have a problem. But she's lying.

In this segregated room of bleached out white,
The black ink of my pen bleeds when I write.
The frail, decrepit, ghost looking back at me,
Is but a shadow of the girl who used to leave a trail of colour,
Through this monochrome world.
I'm praying for the day that her smile returns.
I tell her not to lose hope,
I'm writing a song,
that's gonna travel 'round the world,
Giving light to the dark.
Musical Anna Karenin - with a happy ending.
I'm no Tolstoy but this story needs to be told,
Of sweet Genevieve,
Broken but bold!
Who's tiny food problem got out of control,
Who since last week doesn't eat no more!
Doctors putting tubes in her stomach makes her vomit...
All she needs to save her right now is a prayer,
But we're all too busy to remember her.

Lisa Loeb - She's Falling Apart


They pull up their chairs to the table
She stares at the food on her plate
At the toast and the butter
Her father, her mother, she pushes away

And they rise in the morning
And they sleep in the dark
And even though nobody's looking
She's falling apart

She gets home from school too early
And closes the door to her room
There's nothing inside her
She's weak and she's tired of feeling like this

And they rise in the morning
And they sleep in the dark
And even though nobody's looking
She's falling apart

They call her for dinner, she makes up a reason
She looks at her arms and she rolls down her sleeves
And her mother is starting to see through her lies
And last night her father had tears in his eyes

And they rise in the morning
And they sleep in the dark
And even though nobody's looking
She's falling apart

And we rise in the morning
And we sleep in the dark
And even though nobody's looking
She's falling apart

Eleanor McEvoy - Sophie

Sophie cannot finish her dinner
Says she’s eatin’ enough
Sophie’s tryin’ to make herself thinner
Says she’s eatin’ too much
And her brother says, you’re joking,
And her mother’s heart is broken
Sophie has a hard time copin’
And, besides, sophie’s hopin’

Chorus
She can be like all the other girls
Be just like all the other girls
Livin’ in an ordinary world
Just to fit in, in the ordinary world
Just to fit in like an ordinary girl.

Sophie’s losin’ weight by the minute
How did things get this bad?
Sophie’s family don’t understand it
Gave her all that they had
And her sister won’t stop cryin’
’cause her father says she’s dyin’
Sophie says she’s really tryin’
Problem is, sophie’s lying.

Repeat chorus

How did she get this way?
How did she get this way?
Through tryin’ to hide it.
What does it take to say,
What does it take to say
She’s dying, sophie’s dying to

Alanis Morissette - Perfect


Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face
Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder
How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet
Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud
I'll live for you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem ...... why are you crying
Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are if you're perfect

Silverchair - Ana's Song

Please die Ana
For as long as you're here we're not
You make the sound of laughter
and sharpened nails seem softer
And I need you now somehow
And I need you now somehow

Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire on my knees desires
What I need from you

Imagine pageant
In my head the flesh seems thicker
Sandpaper tears corrode the film

And I need you now somehow
And I need you now somehow

Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire on my knees desires
What I need from you

And you're my obsession
I love you to the bones
And Ana wrecks your life
Like an Anorexia life

Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire on my knees desires
What I need from you
Open fire on the needs designed
Open fire on my knees desires
On my knees for you

Evanescence - Away From Me [Again, not really about Anorexia but helps me]

I hold my breath as this life starts to take its toll
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds
But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to
Lost all faith in the things I have achieved, and I-

I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all the lie I've created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me

Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed
I can't go on like this, I loathe all I've become

I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all the lie I've created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me

Lost in a dying world I reach for something more
I have grown so weary of this lie I live

I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all the lie I've created
I'm longing to be lost in you, I-
Have woken now to find myself
I'm lost in shadows of my own
I'm longing to be lost in you
Away from me
From me (x7)

 

All Time Low - Weightless

Manage me, I'm a mess
Turn a page, I'm a book half unread
I wanna be laughed at, laughed with, just because
I wanna feel weightless and that should be enough

But I'm stuck in this fucking rut
Waiting on a second-hand pick-me-up
And I'm over getting older

If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I'm over getting old

Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction to everything I fear
'Cause I've been going crazy, I don't wanna waste another minute here

Make believe that I impress
That every word, by design, turns a head
I wanna feel reckless, wanna live it up just because
I wanna feel weightless 'cause that would be enough

If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I'm over getting old

Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction to everything I fear
'Cause I've been going crazy, I don't wanna waste another minute here

This could be all I've waited for
(I've waited, I've waited for)
And this could be everything I don't wanna dream anymore

Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year
And I've been going crazy, I'm stuck in here

Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year
(It's gonna be my year)
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
(Go nowhere)
And this is my reaction to everything I fear
(Everything I fear)
'Cause I've been going crazy, I don't wanna waste another minute here

Kitty on the Catwalk - Pro Ana Party Slamma

Push up, push up
Don't stop, don't stop
Push up, push up
Don't stop, don't stop
Push up, don't stop

Kitty On The Catwalk
Pro Ana Party Slamma'

C'mon and search
And destroy
Rock'n'roll
Pro ana boy
Binge, purge
Kill that urge
Push up, push up
Don't stop, don't stop

Change your body
Get a kick
Thin and gorgeous
Heroin chic
Jodie Kidd, Kate Moss
Show your body who's the boss

Fly so high
Touch the sky
Never gonna eat
My technobeat is all i need
Hear my plead
I want to die and touch the sky
I'm in the mood
To flush the food
Never gonna eat
My technobeat is all I desire
Take me higher
Watch me cry, watch me die

Watch me die

A moment on the lips
A lifetime on the hips
Inner beauty is a joke
Kill your hunger with a smoke
Being by yourself and touching your bones
When all of a sudden, your doctor phones
"I made an appointment
for you at two o'clock,
will you be able to show up?"
No!
Push up, push
Don't stop, don't stop
Thin thighs tell no lies!

Fly so high
Touch the sky
Never gonna eat
My technobeat is all i need
Hear my plead
I want to die and touch the sky
I'm in the mood
To flush the food
Never gonna eat
My technobeat is all I desire
Take me higher
Watch me cry, watch me die

Fly so high
Touch the sky
Never gonna eat
My technobeat is all i need
Hear my plead
I want to die and touch the sky
I'm in the mood
To flush the food
Never gonna eat
My technobeat is all I desire
Take me higher
Watch me cry, watch me die